I was having a serious think about thinks today whilst I was resting up in a bath after a hard work out, definitely one of the best places to think. I think sometimes I get wrapped up in this 'Social Scene', just because you are known to carry yourself well, dress well and generally be someone that is seen to be some what of a social butterfly what does it all actually mean in the end?.....Nothing its all superficial. At the end of the day this is just a period of time my life that is gonna pass and I'm gonna look back on and reflect on. Its like High school or Secondary School what you did in school doesn't matter now...I'm a different person and have left from those experiences.
Yes its good at this moment in time and I'm meeting some great people as well as meeting some people I'd care to forget but as I've said in a few years this will all be a distance memory so why do I get wrapped up in it?....Maybe cause some times too much good attention can go to your head and you need to check yourself and think is this the person I wanna be? Some one that is known as a some sort of socialite.....This whole thing is just school upgraded...It means nothing now and it will mean nothing in the future.
So why do you I get wrapped up in it, why do I bother with it??
Well I think this is one question I cannot answer.....
Sometimes you forget who you and what you stand for because for some people, the short term is more obvious and easier to deal with than the long term; for example, i eat crap when im training to give me more energy.. but in the long run, this isnt good for me so i have to stop. its all about being 'comfortable' as soon as you become comfortable, thats when progress stops. some people live on these temporary highs that keep them going until one day they realise theyre left with nothing, a perminant front cant make you truely happy. in your heart its the long term thats important, the future, whether you know you're thinking about it or not, subconciously, its that faith and security in yourself that matters. i dont live in the moment.. i never live for the moment.. im living for 5 months then il live for the moment but im happy, i have my future. its only a matter of time before these temporary highs people have run out.. if you surround yourself with these people who thrive on the front they have created for themselves, you'll loose yourself, you know i think your underappreciatted and misunderstood.. you need people around you that get it. im glad you finally see.
ReplyDeleteYo i just wanted to say, what you do now and what you did in the past does matter. What you did in high school does matter.
ReplyDeleteIts not that it matters to the point where you should dwell on it; but those experiences have made you who you are today, good and bad.
Its the same with now, your networking now will shape your future and while it all seems superficial (which may actually be the case) it still matters. You learn from those people you'd wish to forget so you should be grateful to have met them.